“But I refuse to falter in what I believe and lose faith in
my dreams… ‘cause there’s a light in me that shines brightly… They can try, but
they can’t take that away from me…”
Tears rush to gush out of my eyes whenever I come across
these lines… They embody the central theme of the song and it cuts straight to
my heart and soul every time.
Last night, I was taken over by depressing thoughts brought
about by fear of the always uncertain future, not for me, but for my son. I had
him when I was not yet ready to be a mother. I tried to provide the best
motherhood experience I can give to him until he was about five (5) years old.
Since he had a speech impediment at age 2 ½, I had always regarded him as
special and in the process, undermined in my mind his ability to cope with the
challenges of the real world like ordinary persons can. I guess I had wanted
him to be extraordinary and I am now alarmed because he isn’t ordinary.
Whatever his weaknesses are, I have to believe that he’ll be
alright. Not everyone was raised by perfect parents in perfect neighborhoods
and educated in perfect educational systems. I just have to trust in God
because I know that He is good and He will provide. He will take care of my
children because I, alone, cannot. I am their mother not because of me, but
because of my children… and I wouldn’t have begotten children if it weren’t for
the infinite power and wisdom of Him who sees all things and knows all things.
We are here because of Him and I have to believe that His grace is enough to
take me through wherever, whatever His will brings me.“See I have learned there’s an inner peace I own… Something in my soul that they cannot possess so I won’t be afraid and darkness will fade… ‘cause there’s a light in me that shines brightly… They can try, but they can’t take that away from me…”